Category: Blog Archive
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Silenced
This world is nothing but an illusion. One we can change with a different thought. We walk around in our own worlds judging others for the ones they choose. If it harms me then I must judge wisely. And if it doesn’t affect me then it is not my place to judge. I love what…
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Bravery
I go back and forth on the idea of having an open journal with the world. It’s so vulnerable. Partially I believe that’s why I love it so much. In a world where people are increasingly unable to be vulnerable with one another. Blaming others for their own shortcomings, even judging others harshly and sometimes…
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Head Held High
I hold my head as I never have before. In this season I hold it just a little bit higher than I did two months ago. “What has changed?” You may ask. Everything. Nothing is as it was two months ago. I cannot go back or see the world as I did before. I cannot…
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Face Value
This season of my life has brought disruption and trauma. It has brought destruction and the need to re-build. And with it all, it has brought deep reflection. This isn’t a new topic for me to reflect on, but I’m reflecting on it in a new light. Truth is not slander. Truth is truth. If…
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Big Feelings
Writing has become my happy place. I write from raw emotion and inspiration. It feels like painting a picture to me. Sometimes it’s still life and sometimes it’s abstract but for me it’s art. My other happy place is the ocean, but I don’t get there much. I can imagine my ultimate pleasure will be…
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Panic
Today was the kind of day when a slew of stressors all worked together to cause a new kind of havoc in my mind and through my body. A simple daydream of a hope to come turned into a full blown panic attack. One like I have never experienced before. I’m so grateful for the…
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Just Write
What do you write when you haven’t been able to in months. When you write a dozen beginnings but can’t seem to finish one of them. I have been so shut off and I want to know why. I’m frustrated that I can’t finish one of my writings, a fury of incomplete thoughts and feelings.…
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Go Harder
Go harder! That’s what I hear. Don’t stop! It’s like when I’m jogging up a hill and my muscles begin to burn in my legs and my breath becomes short. This isn’t the time to stop. This is the breaking point. The point where I slow down, or I make a different choice. Instead, this…
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Life Isn’t Fair
I still hear myself saying “life’s not fair.” I lived as a victim to that phrase for my childhood and beyond. I can still say Life is not fair, but is it? Do the bad guys always win out and the good guy loses? Or is it that we don’t know how to take control…
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A Letter To Me
If I could write a letter to me as a child, I know exactly what I would say. I couldn’t say these things to myself before because I didn’t know that they were true. It took a level of self-worth to grow within me through hard work and introspection to get to a place where…