At the end of the day does it matter how you see me?
It may, if I allow it to.
We say what others think about us isn’t our business but is this true? Can we be so secure that others’ treatment of us has no effect? As if the way others talk to us leaves nothing within us.
Even the most secure person can be taken back by an insult or drained by someone’s constant manipulation and lies. We like to think we can enter this realm of perfection where no one else affects us, but the truth is we are all connected in ways unseen by our eyes. We affect one another. Isn’t that why there is so much hate and anger in this world? If we could isolate our existence and live peaceably in that place, why would we have need to be bothered with such strong and draining emotions toward one another?
So, at the end of the day does it matter how you see me? Maybe not, but it certainly matters how you treat and interact with me. And, if I allow it, then yes, it matters how you see me.
If you have value in my life, then does it matter how you see me? Certainly!!! If you see me favorably and that changes to seeing me unfavorably, then whatever it is you are adding to my life is threatened to be taken away.
I would say then, the question is, does how you see me affect the foundation of how I see me? Because that is what really matters. I yearn to see me in a way that is unshakeable by the things that exist outside of me. To know myself so strongly that I never question the truth of who I am again.
When I have built that unshakeable foundation within me, will I be able to change that others still won’t like me sometimes? Never! People will always dislike me for one reason or another. There will always be irritations and jealousies and sometimes an unseen energetic repulsion between two of us for unknown reasons. Just as there will always be people that you meet for the first time and feel comfortable with them as if you have known them for a lifetime. There will be those whom we meet and are our best friends from the moment of hello. An energetic attraction that drives us toward one another.
And as I sit at the end of the day, I may be drained by those who come against me just as I am filled by my interactions with those that love me. I may be weary from spending time with those that don’t see me in a favorable light. But at the end of the day, I will lay my head down and with a smile on my face I will fall asleep in peace because I know me.
Until Next Time,
Jill
