I’m sure this isn’t new for any of you to hear. Things like, “our secrets keep us sick” or “secrets allow others to have a hold on you.”
It’s one of those things we hear along the way and even agree with. We may understand the concept of it, but the reality of it may be too scary to implement. But when really considering this, isn’t it scarier to refrain from implementing it?
I suppose if you have a secret that could get you are a family member killed or put away for life in prison it would be much harder to let out. Let’s not go there right now. Let’s talk about the general thoughts that most people have that they would never want anyone to know.
What happens when we share these thoughts? I have noticed in sharing mine with my best friend that my sickest thoughts aren’t so different than hers. Then I search the internet today and realize my sickest thoughts really aren’t far off from what a great number of people are willing to seek and explore on the internet today, haha! But it’s true.
My sickest thought may not be yours or yours mine but when I accept mine without judgement and understanding then maybe I can accept yours also and us each other’s.
Or maybe not! Maybe you will judge me and run from me and even block me. Maybe you will tell other’s how disgusting I am. Although, its possible those others you are talking to have the same thoughts as I do. In turn they will judge you and not me!! Maybe your gossip of my perversions will give them a sense of understanding and a feeling that they may not be so alone.
The outcome is unknown, but the gossip will get old. Now the truth is out and there are no secrets for anyone to find. There is nothing anyone can use about you to harm you. And these secrets no longer fester within eating away at you, stealing who you are from yourself.
I seek to be an open book. To walk fully unashamed of who I am. To know that my empathy and care for others overrides my desires and interests that you may not like, but harm no one and bring me joy. And any thought that may harm myself or others is just a thought. I can allow it to be fleeting and enter out as quickly as it entered in. Not holding onto it with judgement or fear. Just let it slip from my mind and float away like watching a butterfly take flight, never to be seen again.
Until Next Time,
Jill
